Well, pretty much ALL of my clothes are packed. This 28 year chapter of life in New York will be coming to a close as I make the big move out west with my fiancé. The story goes like this… Boy and Girl go visit their dream state for their 3 year anniversary together, they fall in love with California (obviously), start looking for jobs just to see whats out there for them, Girl lands AMAZING job opportunity as a full time photographer with one of the top wedding photography companies in San Diego, Boy finds some great opportunities as well, they call their friends and family, girl signs all the paperwork to secure the job, they find an apartment, come back to New York and begin their plans for moving to San Diego a month and a half later.
Phewwww. Talk about right place right time huh? That was in November, and here we are about a 8 days out from moving day. My life is in a complete upheaval to say the least. But what a beautiful change that is about to take place in my life. Not only do James (my fiancé) and I have a chance to grow as a couple together, but also as individuals, paving our way through life and taking chances. But its pretty cool that we get to do this together. Not many people can say that they both dream the same thing and then take a leap and actually do it.
As my time in New York comes to an end (for now) a lot of important emotions and thoughts have come up along the way. For one, my need for my family and for my friends has inevitably become the most important thing. I keep having very pivotal emotional changes with how I conduct myself mainly with my family. I find myself more loving, understanding and compassionate. As for my friends, I’m beginning to see who truly has importance and who maybe just isn’t for me at this time. I am so sad to be leaving incredible friendships behind, but trust that the ones who are meant to strengthen through distance will and those that aren’t, well, they won’t.
Gratitude is an undertstament for the months leading up to this huge life change. I took a leap back in September to be 100% freelance, which marked a year milestone of me making a decision to become a photographer. I succeeded tenfold. I worked more in these months than I ever had even with a full time 40 hour a week position. Though exhausted from endless shooting, editing, and never ending weeks that would hit close to 100 hours a week (wish I was kidding), I accomplished more growth, more confidence and more experience literally throwing myself into this and moving THROUGH my insecurities and doubts. Through that I became better than I thought I would, and I have succeeded in my one inner promise: to be able to pay my bills working for myself and freelancing. Thats exactly what happened and more. Success for me was not just monetary, but setting a goal and reaching it, was everything. In the process of all these leaps, I landed my dream job in California doing exactly what I told myself I would never give up on. Now, I will be a full time Wedding Photographer for True Photography as well as a portrait photographer under my own name. Honestly, if you asked me two years ago when I was given my first DSLR from a dear friend, if I thought any of this awesome stuff would happen, obviously I would think you’re insane. But here I am. Life has such a way of working out beyond our wildest dreams and beyond our wildest doubts. My heart was there, my motivation was there, my creativity was there, I just kept going no matter what. There was and is nothing that was going to stop me. Isn’t it wonderful to pursue your dream and even through adversity and fear, still see the fruits of hard work really pay off? Thats exactly why I never settled even when people told me to settle. (yes that really happened)
I wish I had more time to document my move across the country, but this is where certain things just can’t be captured for social media-to some extent. I feel a great need to document it, but I feel an equally great need to be present for it and to really feel every minute of happiness, sadness, anxiety and excitement. In the meantime, I am remaining casually fashion forward while in New York with easy pieces since my closet is GONE. Today I was super ‘approachable’ in my No 1 Cares beanie, leopard vest and my newest favorite matte lipstick from NYX (details below). Pretty sure this hat made even the most vulturous sales woman, decide not to bother me today while I passed her dead sea hand treatment kiosk in the mall. It made me laugh inside when I realized why she second guessed talking to me… oops.
Stay tuned for as many updates as possible on my move in the next weeks!
Bye for now xx